Sopor Aeternus & The Ensemble Of Shadows - To A Loyal Friend

To A Loyal Friend
Sopor Aeternus & The Ensemble Of Shadows
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Once there was a time when the conquest of pain
Was all that I could hope for, had been my only aim.
Happiness or joy merely "unwords" without meaning,
They were unwanted anyway as surely out off place.
All I wanted was the voices to be so silent,
A brief moment in the dark, loneliness and chill.
How I wish my mind could escape the carnal dungeon
That was flying silently through space
While I lay gagged and chained within.

Today my view strangely increased, -
It is beyond compare, -
But nothing became easier, I'm still struggling to be free.
A thousand different things dare to appear before my eyes now,
They come and leave untouched, because still I cannot see.

In true darkness there's no choice than to discover
The uselessness of eyes, giving birth from their own despair.
Here eyes can nothing but decay
And if I fail to do identify myself with them
Then their destiny I'll share...

You are with me all the time - all the time!
So very unreasonable had been my fear.
How could I ever believe that I might be losing you
When forever we're connected and you are part of me

It's your omnipresence that defines the way
In which I do exist, forcefully leading me back to
Where I do belong.
Opening my eyes to see the true essence of my being
By dissolving the distractions of the outer world.

In the loneliness of the pain you bring
The isolation of my soul, guarantees
The maintenance of the only thing that I know:
My natural and obvious differency.
Beloved old friend and life-time companion,
Without you to nothing I would fall.
Your power pervades me and lies me low,
But at the same time a new strength is born to my soul.

Beloved old friend and bringer of sadness,
Shadow-like cloak, almost matter so real.
You slip right through me
Like I was merely membrane,
My feelings so ambivalent
When my wounds refuse to heal...

In a universe of change and continuous movement
I am counting on you since I know you shall last.
Being my darkness and the basis of splendor,
Light-giving background as most fertile past.
You "trance-formation", source of understanding,
You are the power that is pulling me down.
Whenever a lightness seeks to carry me away,
You connect me savely to the ground.
You chill of my winter, eternal saturn-sphere,
Petrified and frozen, with a logic cold as ice.
I walk through the world, look in suprise at the living,
Without being able to share their strange delight.

Beloved old friend and bringer of sadness,
Shadow-like cloak, almost matter so real.
You slip right through me
Like I was merely membrane,
My feelings so ambivalent
When my wounds refuse to heal...